Life itself is a great teacher, a wide
platform where we learn at every moment. We learn from the different phases of
the ups and downs of life, from the tumble, from the separation, from the
togetherness and so on...
Life taught me and still now teaches a lot
of things. Sometimes in sheer desperateness I plunge into utter pessimism.
Sometimes my heart finds the outlet through the words of Estragon. The whole
world comes to a standstill. Nothing happens, nobody comes, nobody goes. It
seems awful. It seems I'm stuck into deep quicksand. The more I try to stand
up, the deeper I drown. I wander through the alleys of life to find its
meaning. I bleed, I suffer in the thorn of life. I feel I'm smothered. I grope
for a wee bit of green greenery to breathe lungs full of. I find no light,
rather remain sunken in the dark abyss of pessimism..
Then few words awaken me with a sudden
blow. Allah says in Quran not to despair from His mercy. No one except the
kafirs despair from His mercy. These few words work as a resurgent power. I
start to find the meaning of life in a newer way. I start to love life. I start
to live life to be grateful to my Lord in whose hand remains my life's control.
I learn, if one has Almighty Allaah with her, she needs nothing more in this
short span of life. All the difficulties seem easier to overcome..
Therefore I say--
" Surely I've turned myself, being upright, wholly to Him Who
originated the heavens and the earth, and I am not of the
polytheists".---- Al Anaam, 79.
I believe in the decree of
my Lord. I believe, when my dua remain unanswered, unfulfilled in the way I
want, then there might some wrong in my prayer or there must be something
better in Allaah's plan. Indeed Allaah is the best planner.
